T-kun Unusual Wordsmith III

Mirror on the wall, please do tell all.
When I look inside you, how come its not true.
I see unsure eyes, what best fits I?
Are they blue, as the cool sea?
Maybe green as the grass and the trees.
Brown like the dirty ground.
Gray as a foggy mist.
What is the color that is me, what is the color all others see?
I have been dealing with this since birth, and I want to know what came first?
Are they green or brown?
Please tell, before my mind leaves town.
Blue or gray?
Let there not be a delay.
It’s an answer I want up front.
I don’t want a weird mix, I want this to be fix.
Leaving me wondered and daze.
I hope to see its just a faze.
Mirror that reflects me, give me an answer of the truth to see.
I don’t want to be in a daze any more, I want to be less torn.
Now for a moment I only see gray, to be as it may.
That is the color I see, a foggy mist sea.
What can be done about that, gray is better then the color of a big brown rat.
Or the color of the blue sea, that is what I believe.
And green as a palm tree.
I say a bit far fetch.
I don’t understand why color is a big deal, knowing that…what about the way I feel?
They say the color eyes mature other time, being mature is not really in my game line.
Why is that the first thing I see, I guess it’s a thing that is part of me.
What is the true color eye, what is the color that best fits I?
I’ll fine out when the is not a minute later, I’ll start to feel better.
One day I’ll fine out, but not in this route.
I got to wait and wait.
One day to pop my eyes, I’ll see what is the real I.

The world divided by water and earth.

A slim of gray walled the great elements.

Earth and water held by a black, iron rope.

It shows no signs of braking.

Water is blue for calmness, sadness, and tears.

Earth is green for envy, sickness, and lying.

They are the few that make the world.

We shed tears for the sick.

We lie to keep from being sad.

The world of water and earth, are more than we think they are.

My eyes have seen pain, to what others think is blain

My ears have heard the screams, they are always in teams

My hands have felt the scars, through closed iron bars

My tongue have tasted the tears, its all bitter fears

My nose has taken to much blood, it has left me in a flood

My mind can only take so much monsters, I have watch so many runners

My ……… can’t take it anymore, let it end before I am tore

Living in the middle of nowhere may not sound fun to others, but to me I can’t imagine anything better. Summer time holds the most meaning to me, if you don’t count the loud scattered, gun fire and the most atrocious animal killing with metal death traps. I try to ignore that by listening to the sounds of the animal calls; such as the yellow finches chirping to one another, and the soft grazing deer that roam the upper hills. A bear’s shin-shivering, adrenaline pumping, and blood curdling growls; I would rather ship flat grey stones into the large, sapphire, clear lake any day. Pine and acorns are the first things that reach my nose, right after the nighty fires I set up for camping, feeling the warmth of red-orange fire to the colorless cold nights that make me rest at ease. Soon, picturing this in the frosty winter, Christmas comes to mind. Hunters are at home for the remainder of the year. Knowing that I am able to gaze upward to the sky seeing it pass from, baby blue skies, with shapeless clouds, to clear or brilliant starry nights. You might be lucky to see a falling star or two; make a wish my friends! I would rather have theses harlequin or emerald woodlands than the boastful, highly-lit, crime infested any second I could get.

B is for Best of the both worlds I have, I can love anyone and be happy

I is for the If I ever get blown off from everyone, but I will always have a smile with me

S is for the Second chances I will take, I won’t be wasting it no matter what

E is for the Electric-feeling I get when I meet the one, I get chills at the thought

X is for the X-ray emotion I can see in others, I know who is true and not

U is for the Up-side in every day life, I will carry those moments forever

A is for the Awesome times I had with the best people ever, I never will forget them

L is for the Love I give, show, take, until my heart can’t gather anymore

When I was young,

I didn’t know what I was.

To my mum: I was her little charmer.

To daddy: I was his little gem.

To my older eight siblings: I was the baby who needed to protected from the outside world.

To my few friends: coolest person they ever knew.

But to me.

I was nothing but a freak!

I was no man that could smooth talk any lady I wanted,

or anything near a girl who could had any man waiting me hand and foot.

I was just a gray spot in a sea of black and white.

I had so much to hide, but I didn’t want to.

This goes was all the way back when I was just a tot,

not knowing or caring about the future or anything of life.

Just to live in the moment and have fun.

During the busy times,

I was alone.

Mum and daddy were always overseas or in the next city.

When school time came around,

I stayed home and tutored at home.

My siblings away in a far away place,

where they learned and made friends all at the same time.

I didn’t like being alone.

To point I destroyed my marvelous family.

I still don’t look at them the same way,

or ever go to dinner with them anymore.

For awhile,

my door had always someone knocking at it.

I came back with them to just I say the one thing I wanted.

To live a normal life.

Nothing easy for a hermaphrodite to tell anyone.

Even if its family.

Another summer past that year,

before I knew it.

I was in same school as my siblings before them.

The only best part for me,

is that no one knew I was their youngest sibling.

No one thought of me as the fifth brother of the next sport champion,

or the fifth girl to be prom queen or something.

I was me and no one would break that.

Well until I meet first “friend”.

He was a jock-head,

but took every thing in mind.

But he had his own problems.

He had to “act” for his friends,

no matter who he hurt.

We weren’t on good terms,

at first.

We kind of grew on each other,

like a illness.

But we did saved each other at sometimes.

Even if we didn’t need it and only end up hating each other more.

Another sport team gang up on him from another school.

That was the day he found out who I was,

when they tried to gang rape me.

He broke loose and helped me,

and in return he didn’t tell anyone who I really was.

We kept that night to are selves, to this day.

Even though we acted like girls who have a crush on the same guy,

to what my sisters told me once.

Hearing my brothers call me a girly man,

was not making me feel any better.

Until someone came knocking at home.

Someone brought me flowers and a sorry note.

He was sorry about calling me mess-up freak,

gay,

queer,

or something along those lines.

We made up,

in the most mannish way.

I still laugh about it.

We didn’t fight that much after that,

we got along for awhile.

Even after some bastards from a nearby school tried to beat me up,

he was there and kick the shit out of them.

My siblings still didn’t trust him at first but my daddy and mum like him a lot more then before.

Not long,

graduation was coming around the corner,

I made this far in life.

I can do anything.

Until a cross firing happen when I was hanging around when my pals.

I took a shot for a person who hated me at the beginning of time.

I was in the hospital for some time.

My family going up and down the walls,

friends either cared to much or not at all.

Jock-head was no where in site for about three months.

I found out later,

he was in jail for assaulting on school property.

He fought for me. A freak.

I should be happy for that,

or worry that he might be in big trouble.

He got off with a warning.

But who knew how long that would last.

So I found me keeping an eye on him,

and our lives has never been better.

Despite everything that we went through together.

It was a feeling we had never notice before.

Love,

and maybe one of the sweatiest/weirdest one I have ever seen grow like this.

The End.

There she was, over through that blue sea

Only in my eyes, I knew my heart stop

Love was just a fairy tail, until I reach the top

The top to your heart, over the blue sea

Baby, you were the best of all

Nothing broke my trance for you, I thought I was a fool

You’re a tiger, ready to pounce

On that single bounce, your claws of death held me tight

I lost all sight, and was only in fright of everything

I wrote a song, I only knew you could sing

When I stop to think, I was only at my brink

No drink, could keep me down

I could only frown, as I took a fall

For a moment, your were sweeter then apple pie

But now your only bitter, my oh my

I want to fly, into that big sky

But your chains keep me down, you took away my light

You were once an itch, but you became a bitch

When I stop to look back, it only make me crack

I laugh, at something not funny

I lost reason for something most, the one I thought of sweet honey

When I stop with a foot off the ground, I hear the sound of a squash bee

No, it was more then that

It was something better, something with fat

I only look ahead, as I left a trail of blood from your head

When I stop to think of you, I knew I should have not chose you

This is my farewell, from the unwell

You were just a bitch, who wanted a new pitch

I counted on them, to the point where my heart was on my sleeves. Until the very time where, I just wanted to rip them to pieces. I try to be something great, but I end up being turning down. I want to be something I can be something else. Why did you bitches break me.

I end up finding myself, in my closest, a small blade in hand. Until I need it the most. I come back to see ya smiling faces. But only disgust in return. Ya cunts and bastards make me sick. Where I just want to cut ya up more then myself. I want to be something great. Not a wack-job ya’ll think I am.

There’s not one moment where I think, ya guys are the bad ones. Your not open minded. You believe in only one path. Ya trash talk about others when it should ya. I want no part in anything where some shit…doesn’t happen. If you think that’s true. Ya no more of one-mind bitch yourself.

Years are slowly tracking by. No ones going to make a change. “Crimes” will only grow more and more–but that’s because ya won’t say anything. That closed door is the only thing keeping me apart from you and away from the real world.

I that nice blade, sparkles and yearns to be used. When I do, ya’ll be at the other end. I stand afar, waiting and waiting. When ya are all talking about the greats of lives and not knowing what’s around you. In that little bubble of yours. Ya bitches make me sick, I vomit blood when I look yo’ way.

My world is dark but true, yours is bright with sunshine and is in faults. You must know what is real and what is not. Nothing can be sealed away. All must be open or no one will be cheerful. Take the bull by the horns and god-damn it make some burgers. No one is safe from the truth.

And yo’ can take that to the bank. And mail with a big stamp of reality. Because guess what? That’s what this world is. Reality! No ones goes without being heard of. Be ready for that knife in the back, ’cause yo’ nothing but a traitor.

Yo’ nothing but ungrateful friends who won’t open up ya’ minds. Damn it, people. Wake up or go back to that rock of yours. Because the world is not going to take ya’ll shit. Now or never!

The End.

In a world of lies, everyone it trick to believe in something

They say we can anything, but can we really give it are all

I was chosen because of birthright, I only knew I lost my family

I grew up alone, only teachers by my side

It hurt so bad, I cried till no more

I lock away myself from everything, till I decided to run away

I change my whole look, to the point no one knew who I was

I smiled at my freedom, but the thought of it ending seem so close

People tried to get close, but I never let them

Even when I thought I was alone, I had someone near me

It was the ones who got here in the first place, at first I was angry to I needed help

They lead me to where I wanted to go, to get that freedom seem so much closer

I learn to trust others, but I knew so little about them

I wonder why they wanted to help me, soon I find out why

I just wanted to cry, I have a found a new family

I find where I was needed, I bid my good-byes

They didn’t know what I was doing, it was too late when I jump

I hear them scream for me, but I turn a deaf ear

I have gotten my freedom, the only way I could

I jump off to my end, I only smiled when I met darkness

When I met you, my life turn anew

One night, is when my life to flight

One girl, against five men

Not a fair game, Those men were nothing but old flames

I hear tears, but not out fears I knew

I turn to see you, to the ground crying

You shiver, of what I don’t know

I try to talk to you, but soon I’m at a wall

A man the size of a building, over towered me

He was about to punch me, but something stop him

You stop him, holding his arm as best as you could

You tell him what I did, your words proved my deed

The man backs off, its just you and me

You say your thanks, and start to walk away

I grabbed your arm, not to rough as the guy takes a step are way

I ask if we could meet again, I didn’t know why I just wanted to talk to you

You look at me with big, diamond, black eyes, my heart was a taken by you that day

I’m shock to see where you stay and work, a sweet like you is a stripper

I meet your ‘family’ that took you in, you were just a baby in box back then

Your ‘father’ and owner of the place, lets you work here but never’s go on stage or the back rooms

You want to go college when you can, and become a lawyer someday

At 15 just like me, you still got a long way to go

Your ‘sisters’ love you with all their hearts, they keep on track which they never did

The big guy I find out is your bodyguard, he what make anyone fall to their knees

Something as sweet and pure as you needs to be protected, I ask if I could back to see you again

At first, you didn’t want to trouble me

You didn’t the other side of me, soon you say its fine

I have a reason to leave my dark world, only wish you knew it

In a back corner table, you there waiting for me

When you work, you’re a waitress to the slime balls here

Your father keeps hawk eyes out for you, even when I’m here or not

I find out that those guys from before, have attack you before

Luckily to me with just gladness, your bodyguard was there for you

You have never done what your ‘sisters’ do, so I know for a fact you’re a virgin

For me to hear that, I’m glad

For over a year or two, I come to see you

I could never give a damn of what my family think, that was until they found out

They call you things, I know your not

I told them, I’m not leaving you

To the point I will marry you, and that’s a promise I won’t break

That kiss we shared, is what to keep that deal all those years up till now

My love with you will never die, as a stay near you forever

You were someone I knew not from blood or life, to me you were just a blood sucking lice

You trick the people who I care about the most, and yet you just smile and give a toast

No one saw the truth of you, not thinking it would come out of the blue

You thought not as I hope, I would prove you were a fucking dope

I held in my hand a tape, of that horrible rape

I let all my fears, flow threw my tears

After all that hell, you should know I was going to tell

You should know you could never replace my father anyway, I smile as I see your go farther away

You were a fool, to think you could be so cool

I’m not so frail, as your in jail

Well this is good-bye, may we never meet again Ty

As I am your moon, you are my sun

But for unknow reasons that kill me, you end up taking away the fun

I see you smile at me, just rub it in my face

To me I know for a fact that there is more, your evilness adds more to this case

As I am your peace, you are my war

I can feel the tear down my face, that only leaves my heart sore

I ask for moment for it to stop, no matter how long

While I am here, I know your gone

I am your love, you are my hate

I think just for the time, this was far from fate

I am your brave, as you are my fright

I know for now not to live in fear, I as I know your more bark then bite